Yearning.

Yesterday,
I was doing my art final piece in my room,
When Emma texted me.
From like 1 pm till 1am.
It's sucha long time ta complete one final piece.
Had ta stick da lace,da felt & tha jewels according ta my fashion design.
My theme is 'Masquerade madness'.
& I had ta do a couture design.
But I ended doing a pinkwhitejewels&lace.
Haha,It looks like an Barbie's Dollfit.
Pfmmttt.
Eve's gonna get shocked by my final piece.
Cos it's way different from my concept.
& I gotta do the otha thangs for art too,as
I've prepared my prep work,
but havent complete da whole thang.

~Hiyaak Dush! (:
Still a long way ta go.

Okayoaky,
Back ta Emma.
She asked me for a little text help.
I had no idea what ta type and so,
Suddenly,
I just felt like I have ta express what exactly was on my mind.
I send her this:

If one touch of me,
Could turn everything that I touched to ice,
I would touch the universe except for Me & You.
This Icy cold fingers,
Will take your hand,
Hold it tight,
Feel the blood rushing through your veins.
Skating on the streets,sidewalks,roads,
With only you by my side.
And if that wish were ever ta grant,
I would hereby promise,
That You're the last person I wanna be with,
Before both of us turns cold.

Hope you like it,sista.
*Giggles*
Yours truly,
Syaeera'

Emotions.

You: Giving out love is like a treasure in people's heart. But I know where's the
spot to mark you.& its deep inside your heart.

Trusting each other will take time,I know.
But baby, if there's a will, there's a way.
Syaeera,Are You Ready To Be My Boo?(: and just wanna say that,
From the bottom of my heart, I really love you.

Syaeera Whispers: The moment I read your textes,I know you're true.
But this little heart of mine is whispering something bad to me.



Me: The pain that I've went through,
Can never lit my smile ever again.
Not a smile,a laugh,
The happiness taht I ever went through was untouchable.
And if love is temporary,
Why bother step into it?
For as we know that nothang ever last.
Why put yourself at risk?
When ya know da consequences.
I'll never love again ; Till I find the meaning to it.

Yours truly,
Syaeera'

Him: I want to take that risk,
If you can give the chance to show you how much I love you.
Then if you doesnt want,I'm still
Gonna try my best to win over your heart.

Happy mother's day,honey(:

Mama played a kitty-fight with me,just now.(:
Cos I caught her peeping at my cellphone,
And she act as thought she wanna charge my cellphone.
'You're visible already,mama'.
Haha.
She was embarassed cos I've seen through her white lie.
hehs,
I laughed to da core,
and she catches me as i run around da house.
But in the end,
she got me.
Dang,you got me,honey.

Thank you for bringing me up.
Watching me grow,
My first scribble,
My first time mumbling "mama"
My first cry,
Changing my diapers and milk bottle way back then.
And every single thing you did for me.
The pain you've gone through,just to have me safe.
Telling me bedtime stories everynight to make me sleep,way back then.
Singing me ta sleep.
Stayed with me,when I used to be warded almost everytime in the hospital.(for whatever reasons).
Forgive me for all those pain I've caused you.
I love you,mama.
Yes I Do.



Much love,
Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

A better today.

In Life,Everyday Is Just A Test From God’

That's what papa often reminds me,
whenever I wanna find out the purpose of living in this world.

till I find the meaning,
Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

I'll take it slow

Yesterday,
9th May 09.

Supposed ta go ta da gym with Mr.Nice & Manis.
Planned ruined due to my beautysleep.aiyaiyayai(:
Watched a malay film.
Texted Mr.Nice & Manis bout da plan.
Too many changes , I'd rather study .hiyaaak-dush!
Bbq ,karaoke,Bicycle ride,Marina.
I Cant Decide.
Manis doesnt wanna go ta da bbq,for some reasons.
I dont want ta,if there's no Manis(:
So I texted Mr.Nice & told him that I dont wanna go.
And he dont wanna go,if there's no me.haha.
Crazy dude.
I got so messed up with the un-fixed plan,
so I didnt reply Mr.Nice's textes.
I'd rather spend time doing ma thangs.
Iya baybee texted me,
Asking if I'm going, to Marina with Olin & stuffs.
I replied,told her yea.
Manis sent me a sudden text,saying: "Syaeera,I'm on my ma ta ya place".
Oh my,I'm not ready yet.
I asked if she wanna tag along with me to karaoke.
And she wants ta(:
Got ready and stuff, phooff! go on with ma plan.
Upon reaching,saw Rahmat at bedok inter & I smiled.

Took 2 with Manis ; talktalktalk & reached.
Met Iya baybee,Emma,Olin,Ina Fenty,Shakira & Nass.
Went ta seperate karaoke rooms,
Me & Manis together.(:
Sang:
Hero-Mariah Carey(Manis.ft Syaeera)
Beatiful Liar-Beyonce & Shakira(Manis & Syaeera)
When You're gone-Avril Lavinge(Manis & Syaeera)
Fergalicious-Fergie(Manis.ft Syaeera)
Ma Goodies-Ciara(Manis)
We Belong together-Mariah Carey(Manis)
Aku bukan untukmu-Rossa(Syaeera.ft Manis)
Sakura-Rossa(Syaeera)
Cinta-Rossa(Syaeera)
Bunga-Bunga Cinta-Misha Omar(Syaeera)
Pulangkan-Misha Omar(Syaeera)
And alot more(:

Had fun though even unwanted guys looking through da class door.
Iya baybee & girls finished da session first,so they waited for us.
Joked,Laughed,Ticles, & went ta da bus stop.
Me & Manis took 2 ta Bedok.
Iya Baybee & girls took 21 ta Bedok Reservoir.
Saw fyna & friends in da bus.
Went ta meet Mr.Nice at Bedok.
Aha.
Horaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy for Manis.
(Someone gotta secret crush!)*winkwink* (Ahems)
I'm happy for you,babe.
Mr.Nice, P/s:Had a beautiful bicycle ride with you(:
Hahaha,it's been awhile since someone treat me this way.
You're way too nice,sweetie.
Okayokay, I dont wanna brag about it.
Just something is missing.
You're nice,you're sweet,but I'm still a bit naive.
I just dont know why I'm not that into you.
But at times, I do.
Maybe I was insecure.
See,I cant explain this feelings I'm having.
Or maybe this feelings I'm craving.
Haha, Anyway,
Overall,That ride with you is beautiful.

You fetched me home ,wherever I am.
You talk to me now & into the nights,till it's alright again.
You make me feel special,
Putting me on top of the rest.
It's like I'm Precious to you.
You're not ashamed of me,eventhough I got an ugly side.
You show me off to da world instead.
I Appreciate, Yes I do.
& I Thank you for that.

Papa fetched me at skyhigh,
Off ta Pasir Ris ta view my going-ta-be house
with Baby Danial,Grandma,Auntie Lynn Uncle.
Baby Danial is going ta turn Three,soon(:
He's really cute.
After House viewing,went ta Fisherman's Village.
Went ta Mac after that.
Bought Lovely grandma Sundae(:
I love you alot,nenek.hehs.

Went home.
Toodles,
Fellas.(:

Yours till your heart breaks,
Syaeera'

"THE HOTTEST LOVE HAS THE COLDEST END"

This was typed by me when I had nothang better ta do at Diana's place.
Only one big word ta describe what exactly I was feeling that particular Friday.
REMENINSCE.


Dear Mr.No Longer Exist,
I know it's over between us.
I know I've Moved On.
& I sense,you do too.
But as goodbyes are sweet drifts,
I think I have ta confess this.
The fact that I,:
Still remember the way you unlock my heart,
Still wishing that I'll get ta know you that I first met,
Still wishing that the promise you made will come true,
Hoping that every single history wil fade,
But it never did.
Never did I hate you,(Eventhough I often describe it).
Just words,ta keep reminding myself ta forget you.
But it was too strong to change my perspective of you.
But the fact that I cant,
Made me find solutions to this illusions.
But solutions after the other,
Still cant push you away.
Cos for the truth is, "You're often the first & the last in my mind".
Just like my favourite song that keeps playing on da speaker.
Repeating da tracks,over & over again.
The song that even puts me ta sleep,every single lonely nights of mine.
I just want you to know that,
I miss every single moment with you.
I know others keep saying & inferring the sentence:" Grow up kid,Move On".
But what hurts the most was being so close.
I Miss Every Single Thang About You.
And right now, I LOST YOU'

"Though No One Can Go Back And Make A Brand New Start,
Anyone Can Start From Now And Make A Brand New Ending ".

Labels:Guys,Dudes,Boys,Lads or whatever they label it.

Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

Just So Random

Yoyoyoyooyo,Fellas.
Hiyaaak-dush! (:
haha,kay I'm krazaye.


I'm damn bored at home.
Been studying lately.(choo choo train).
Haha,you know what I mean.
I promise ta do better in studies.
Life's great.I'm emotionally stable.(huahua)
I'm shifting house soon ; but I dont know when.
I'm sooo excited. But at da same time,worried.
I hope this is da best for me.
Okayokay,gym,swimming pool,I guess I'll be seeing you everyday.(haha)
Kay,I dont know what exactly I'm feeling right now.
Just ignore my craps.(:
Back ta square one!

Okay so lately,I've been spending time with dudes & dudettes.
Eve,Kerraline,Diana,Ady,Daryl,Huzairi.(+ 2 other peeps,but I wont mention.)
Since I'm lazy ta blog about what I've been doing lately,
So just read da summary.

Here's da summary of what I've been doing:
Went ta karaoke with Diana & Eve.
Studied at Pasir Ris with Ady,Daryl,Joshua,Haikal & I forgot the otha one.
Went ta Haikal's chalet with Kerraline.
Went ta da movies with Mr.Nice,Roy,Nafsiah & Azri.
Went ta RC ta meet Iya,Ina,olin and tha rest.
Eat,Sleep,Dance,Sing,Laugh,Study. (:


phoof!
I'm going ta study again.
Takecare fellas.

Toodles!


Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

Space '

This is gonna be a post in Malay.
I would like ta apologise ta those who dont undastand.
I jotted this in my Diary lastnight.
I wrote this,after a friend of mine texted me.

So Here's to you:

Kata-kata ini diukir di dalam diari ku.
Kemudian ku imbas kembali peristiwa yang sangat menyakiti,
Menyakiti hatiku.

Ku ukirkan kata-kata ini di galerimu, wahai teman dan juga sahabatku.


Wahai Teman,
Kamu pernah memberitahuku bahawa cinta itu adalah aku.
Ternyata,kamu salah.
Aku bukan Cinta.
Cinta yang dikau impikan selama ini.
Wajah yang dikau rindui,
Setiap detik ku tiada.
Detik ini,
Aku sendiri tidak tahu apa itu cinta.
Apakan lagi, ertinya.
Wujudkah Cinta itu?
Kau pernah berkata bahawa senyumanku manis,
Tetapi pernakah terlintas di fikiranmu,
Saat dikau ucapkan kata-kata manismu,
Aku langsung tidak percaya,
Dan ku anggapnya sebagai kata-kata manismu sahaja?
Wahai teman, maafkan aku.
Aku tidak dapat menerima Cintamu.
Kerna dikau lafazkan ayat-ayat cinta kepadaku,
Hanya selepas mengenaliku selama sehari

Itu bukanlah Cinta.
Itu hanyalah permainan hatimu.
Aku akui ,memang sukar untuk ku percaya.
Percayakan bahawa tidak semua jejaka itu sama.
'Jejaka' yang pernah juga melukai hatiku.
Aku tidak mahu bercinta lagi.
Kerana cintalah aku jadi begini.
Hari-hari ku muram,kasihku kurang.
Adilkah ini?
Ternyata tidak.
Aku belum bersedia lagi.
Kembalikanlah Cinta hidupku yang hilang itu.

"Aku tidak akan menanti,
kerana menantilah,
Cintaku mati"


Dengan penuh Cinta ;
Yang Benar,
Syaeera'



English Translation Of da Poem ;

Dear friend,
You once told me tahat love was me.
But're you're wrong.
I'm not love.
The love that you had wished for or dream of all this while.
The glance of me that you miss,
Every single second I'm not around.
I dont even know what's love.
And furthermore,
The meaning ta it.
Does love really exist?
You once told me that my smile was the sweetest,
But did it ever come across your mind taht to me,
It was just another sweet verse of yours?
Honestly, I didnt trust you at all.
Dear friend,
I'm sorry,
I cannot accept your love.
Cos you confessed after spending just a day with me.
That's not love,sweetie.
Your heart's just playing games with you.
& Yes I admit, I completely lost trust in guys.
'Guys',the label that did break this little soul of mine.
I dont wanna fall in love again.
Cos 'love' put me in this state that I'm going through.
My life's down,
My love's lost.
Is this fair to me?
Let me tell you a straight No.
Perhaps time wasnt ready for eveythang.
Return me the lost love of my life.

"I will not wait,cos if I were ta wait,
My love fades".

With much love,
Yours truly,
Syaeera'