You're the reason I feel alive again '

(1st Shot : Rainbow shot while on my way ta da bus-stop(: )
(2nd Shot : Syaeera Featuring Mirul )
(3rd Shot : Olin.Rollin&Syaeera Featuring.Eddy)




P/s: Dear Fellas,
Post Will be updating soon' .

Vulnerable .

Yesterday , 20th Marchie 09,
Woke up early in da morning for malay dance practise.
Ilovemymalaydancers! (: .
Hahs,yea random. Tried so hard ta embrace ta da song.Left School at around 3.30 ; If I aint wrong. Spent time with Eve & Shaz ,dancing all away.
Laughed with love ,(: .
Went ta skyhigh , but it was too hot there,
so went ta chat at a place next ta Eve's apartment.
And then, some paricular seeking attention mats, purposely walk past our table and sat right next ta us.
Ewww,itchyybutyy guys.
I cant stand such people, so I ask Eve ta move ta my house instead.
Went ta ma house, sharing secrets,flipped magys,joke around, laughed again.(:
Spending time with her was never a second regretted.(:
My friend,my sister, my everythang.
"I Love You,Eve" .
Okay,After that accompanied her ta meet her boyfriend and blablabla,
and then I went off.
And for if I went ta da bus stop with no intentions, I called Anal.
Asked him where he is, and then met him & his sister.
Sent her sister off ta my estate, and then went ta takraw court .
Saw one of my senior malay dancer there, tehee.(:
Stayed till 8+, then headed ta pasir ris ta meet Emma & family.
Had ex-boyfriend accompanying me, while waiting for da time ta fly.
Joke,laughed,smiled,slapped him for some joking reasons, haa(:
He went off as he stayed around there to, and then I headed ta E-hub ta meet my Aunts & Uncles.
Ate at Mac,zoom ta da car.(:
Emma Overnight at ma crib, and da all time favourite ; wacth horror films.(:
Slept at around 3 am.
Wished Iyastar was here with us too.):
Ayaan called, for I dont know why.
Mirul & Iya texted.
Too tired, So I turned in at three.


21st Marchie Morning Ohh (:
Iya Texted, Asked me out.
Blogged.
Meeting Da rest Later with Emma.
Going Karaoke Again,I guess.
I wish someone would ask me out to da movies' .
Havent watched for kinda long period of time.
Kay,I gotta go,
Emma wanna use da comp.
Toodles, fellas.


XOXO.
Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

Another dream wasted on you '.

Dear Fellas,
Eighteenth Marchie zerozeronine,(:
Went ta Sentosa with manis babe. Was supposed ta shot videos for our project work.
But turns out,we took shots of us,haha(:.
Took bus thirty,as I dont wanna get confused by the changing of da mass rapids.
Hahs,after da long journey in da bus day dreaming, and finally, we reached.(:
Headed ta Siloso first,then to Pahlawan Beach.
Was surprised and shocked when I saw people there. I mean, nevermind,forget about it.
Dang,Going to Sentosa was definitely a wrong choice made.Should have gone ta karaoke or somethang.
Or probably,East Coast. Dang,I shoud have listen to that tiny voice of my heart.
But dang,it's okay. I had fun with manissah babe.
And Couples there,'Suh-weet'(: .
And let me reminsce da seven-eleven scenes.
That mr.cashier, made me felt so shy ta even buy things there already.
Here's da story : I grabbed some buns and my all time favourite ; Green Tea.
And upon paying,he looked into my eye,and I cant stand people doing that to me.
and because I'm short,I cant reach ta da green tea,so he kid with me.
He smiled and hold my Green Tea and did not let me reach mine.
He asks for my name and all.
So I just smiled and look away.
I had ta tiptoed ta reach my drink.
Damn it,laa.
Thought he was Indonesian .
Manis kept laughing and smiling. Whispering that he likes me.
I was like,"manissah,I came here ta buy a drink,not to flirt".
She was like,"Okayokay,Sorry luh".
We ended up going there thrice.
Aww man,damn embarrasing luh.
Anal & Mir asked for plastics and he wouldnt let them.
So they asked me for a little help, and so I went ta da cashier for plastics.
Before handling it ta me, He ask for my name,my age and where I am from in perfecto Bahasa Melayu.
Oh god, so all this while,all those whispers of me & manis, he understands laa.
After that incident,I never want ta go back there again.
After spending all da time, we headed back home.
But halfway through the sandy soft pestels, Miss Sharifah ,our year two literature teacher, called us in.
We went there, tooked pictures with her, and spent some time there.
I saw Ex-bf there.
And I pretended like I didnt care. Seems like he was having fun, so I dont wish ta interupt his fun.
I wouldnt dare ta look him in the eye though.
Waited for Nal & Mir, whom took their own sweethoneybee times ta get back,
I snap some shots there and took some little steps in da water.(:
After all thangs are settled, we headed off ,took the beautiful small thang,and reached vivo.
Was supposed ta spend time there, but Manis had ta go, so we took thirty back ta Bedok again.
Funny me, Anal was making jokes just ta cheer me up,
but instead of laughing,I cried.
Cos perhaps it's just a normal day to all the human beings in da whole wide world,
but to me, it's a special day.
Ya Fellas wont understand why.
Told myself, if that night,nothang happens, then forget it,girl.
Ternyata, tiada apaapa berlaku ; lupakan sahajalah okay ;usah mencintai dirinya lagy.
While da journey in da bus ta bedok,they dedicate & sang me a song entittled 'Oh Syairah'.
A malay love story song,
but names changed.
Thanks alot,you guys.(:
That made me feel a whole lot better. Now I realised, I dont need an extraordinary love.
I've got my family, my friends ; they're my rain, my bow,my shine'(:
Sent manis babe home, and spent time under apartment 36, if I aint wrong.
Laughed,Joke,Smiled,Lived my life '.
Papa texted me, and then I went home with Anal.
Thanks Anal for sending me home (: .


'Upon looking at those nice scenery,those skyhigh above, a sunset without you again'
Another dream wasted on you ; what a dissapointment.
Labelled :Never were- ♥Lost, stay away .


Yours truly,
Syaeera '

Stay Away.

Today Seventeenth Marchie 09,
Got up early in da morning at around 10, due to malay dance practise in school.
Left house at around 11:20 a.m.
Reached school at 11:45 a.m.
Somehow,Da school wasnt silent today.
Walk through the gym walkway and I saw her.
Pretended like I didnt saw her, and just walk away.(cos I aint sure if I had ta say 'Hello,Hi" or something).
Well,that doesnt mean that I'm arrogant.
Sat in 4/6 class for awhile,
chatted with da classmates.
P/s: They Are Great Human Beings (: .
Didnt intend ta disturb Deal & Yaan, So I went ta da back seat,
and chatted with caveyy-man throughout.
Saw "Superhuman's" table, being a busybodaye, I look through his file'.
And there, I saw the letter that I once gave him.
I remembered when I once told him that if he do miss me, do read that letter.
So much for thinking that he brought home that letter or somethang.
Ternyata,tidak.
See,guys dont a-p-p-r-e-c-i-a-t-e .
Well,it's okay. I can do it way better.
Imma show you how it feels like , to be unnappreciated '
I am lovesick. I mean, yes I know,forgetting you isnt easy.
Watching you walk away,breaks.
But dang,you got me.
And if I could start those chapters of love with you, I'm sure I would be able to end it,too.
Your empty promises,that shows a coward's actions.
I believe,time will heal.

Kay,Let's Put It To A Stop.
I dont wanna brag about this anymore.
Back ta square one! (:.
After all those story-sharing session, left da class, and went ta eat with 'The Great Human Beings (: '.
As usual, I ordered Nasi Ayam Penyet,with Papaya Milk Shake.
Ahh,so fine".(:
After eating and stuffs, headed home .
Nobody's home, ): .
Called momma, asked her out.
Changed , headed ta Eve's housing estate.
Was supposed ta meet her,but she was nowhere ta be found.
Met Yaan at dome,
and headed ta 78'.
Saw ex-bf ,and the takraw people.
And saw bestfriend w/ Sofea under blk 78.
Got nothang better ta do,so sat with them for awhile.
Was desperately searching and trying ta find a way ta reach Eve.):
Rang her homie,but she aint home'.
In the end,decided ta just leave, without her.
Took 506, and headed ta iya's crib.
Met momma there, headed ta Scotts road, and shoppe(:.
Yay man!.
Somehow, when momma talked ta me about 'superhuman',
I dont know why I get a little sensitive, and I cried ); .
Dang, I told momma that I'm trying ma best till the very end.
And for if I give up,I'm sorry , you arent for me'.
I just dont know why rainy days seem so long.
But hell,
I'll be able ta go through this.\
Okayokay,I wanna stop here.
I'm too restless ta continue this post.
Perhaps next time alright.
Toodles~rainbowdreams,fellas.

xoxo!

yours truly,
Syaeera'

Wondering If you were ever coming around'

Today, Sixteenth of march.
Woke up early at around 7 a.m. ; went ta humanities classes.
Reached school at around 8:15 a.m.,
And da school was kinda empty. Saw Wafa,sat with her for about a few mins,and then headed ta class.
Class is okay today.(:
Afta class,dont know where ta go, so accompanied Anal & Diana to Mir's House.
Karaoked,watched paranormal,and all those girls' talk with Diana(: .
Went off like around 5 p.m.,
Walked throughout the hills and slopes,
In the end,reached home.(:
I kept thinking of you,lately. But I'm keeping queit,cos it's hopeless for me'.
What if the lost of da bracelet was just a false action made by me?
(Just ta see,wether I mean more to you,or da bracelet).
Yea I Know,I'm Still Wearing Da Bracelet.
Da gift from you,on our 2nd anniversary.
I'm sorry,I lied that it was lost.
And I know,Yesterday's text from me was random.
Cos when I looked Above The Skyhigh,
I Saw The Moon,The Stars,But I you wasnt there with me.
And I saw all the flashback of us, when I close this eyes of mine'.
Remember those star gazing moments with you under the moon?
I try so hard to get you out of my mind.
And I'm still holding on to your words.
And if all those promises you made,
was just a reason for you to not make me hate you,
then I guess I have ta accept the fact that you're gone forever.
Sometimes I wonder, "Dont You Ever Reminisce About Our Past,Even For A Second?"
Nomatter how hard I try,
Trust me, Forgetting you wasnt easy.
You're on my mind constant, thinking about you all the time'



Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

I Close My Eyes,And I Saw The Flashback Of Us'

(Candid Of Me And Mirul By Iya (: )

(Ena Fenty Feat,Syaeera)

(Olin Rollin ; Ena ; Iya : Sya )


(P/s:I Love You)




Today, March Fourteenth ; outing with IyaEmmaOlinNasMirulEddyEnna (: .
Papa drop me at bugis , met them , ate at Kfc.
Iya & me were laughing throughout.(our inside out joke right iya? aha,(: )
While walking ta Bugis village, some particular guys stopped Eddy & Mirul.
Emma panicked,Iya blured,Nas dreaming,Olin wondering & me,thinking.
Somehow those guys looked like gangstas.
But they're actually some peeps from da athorities.
Mirul were fined again.(P/s: I'm not gonna let that happen to you again.)
Somehow,all of us split ta da different directions.
Emma & me took bus 197 ta katong, and met the rest there.
We decided ta go for a karaoke session.
During da session, I was really shy at first,
and for the first few minutes and the first song I sang for today is Atas Nama Cinta-Rossa ,followed by Ayat-Ayat Cinta-Rossa,Ena sang Jablay by Titi kamal,Duet Bila rindu,My heart & S.O.S with her.(:
It was really fun.
Mirul sang "Aku Masih Sayang" -ST12 ;and I didnt know that Mirul gotta great voice.(:
After karaoke,all of us accompanied Ayaan & Amir For some gaming thang'.
Back at Bedok Reseivoir at around 9++,
Ate at mac with Iya,Mirul,Ayaan & Amir, Then headed to Iya's Crib.
Spend time there tiill papa fetch me.
And yea, he text'(:
I know you & Ayaan told somethangs ta Iya,
But right now,
I dont really trust guys anymore.
I'm sorraye.
Yes,maybe that imaginary princess,like in those fairytales,but I dont deserve it.
And Yes,I Do Dream Of Those Fairytale Happy-Endings Too,
But trust me,those happy-endings is far away from existence.
And I dont wish ta go through those puppylovethang again.
Trust me,
It Doesnt Exist.
I Lost da key, And I aint sure where I left it'.
But Overall,
Today sure was a fun and greato!(:
(P/s: I Love You,Sister)

Its 2:53 a.m. right now,
Gonna Call That Particular Someone,
And I'm Gonna Turn In Real Soon.
Good Dawn,
Everyone.
xoxo!


Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

♥ Much Misses ;

♥Fasha Zahara

♥Efron.
EFRON.EFRON.EFRON.P/S: You're in my mind constant,thinking bout you all the time'.
yours truly,
Syaeera

Scream Ma Name '

It's 15 days already,
anotha 15 more days ta go ta a month mending;
but nothang is yet mended.
It's okay.
Perhaps I shouldnt think about it anymore.
Live your life,syaeera' .
As goodbyes are sweet drifts,
Your empty promises,
Dang,I'm speechless.
I can't believe all the lies that you sold ,
& I was a fool to buy it all ' .

Wish you happiness throughout'.

With a little bit of love,
Syaeera'

A Paper Cut Symphony '

Today,
Friday da 13th,
I Finally get ta see KerralineBaby in school today.(:
Two exceptional days without her,didnt seemed so fine.
She's like, apart of me, my friend too'.
Early mass exercise,I passed my 2.4 km running thang,
so those who are cleared was given the opportunity to play sports.
I chosed volleyball,and played with my mates.
It sure was fun.
After ME, went ta recess.
Took light thangs during breaktime ;pineapple , HL (as usual),and milo.
Changed,And went ta maths class. And again,maths class is totally boring.
All those bangs and bumming in da class.
Dang,I just couldnt be bothered.
Pretended like I paid attention ta da lesson,when I was actually discussing some thangs with KerralineBaby.
It rained today, Yay!,haha(: .
Didnt waste too much time on toilets and stuffs,
went ta find a calm place,sat down for a few hours ta finish up Physical Education Project with Eve & my un-identical twin,-Syafiqah .
And those are da moments where happiness ,joy & laughter begins'(:
Throughout the ticking clock,Eve & Nutcracker laughed about me.
Cos da reason is,every jokes,every inference they made,
Still,I'm very slow at getting it and I didnt laugh. (How pathetic).
Halfway doing da project thang,saw Kamaro'(:
Hahs,completed the project at an estimated time :5.10 p.m. ,
tooked my bike under Sam's block,
And cycled home.
P/S: Somehow,I Feel Like I'm Being What I Used Ta Be,And I Like It That Way' (:


Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

Tarian Melayu'

(Shot Early January 09')


SYF's In April,
Speech Day Performance's in Early April.
I dont know if I can do it.
I hope I can make it.
I Promise to be a better dancer,
I promised not to bring our school down,
Instead,Make us proud.
I'll put in more effort,don't worry alright.



Cos The Reason I'm Interested In This Dance Is Because,
I Appreciate The Culture , And I Admire The Gracefulness '(:


Your's Truly,
Syaeera'

Us Against The World '

When words failed,music failed,Poetry Speaks For Me .

Here's To You :

We're like strangers already,
When we clash into the same direction,
Dont you notice that we're tryin ta avoid each other?


It's useless already,there's no point.
Do you think I really want this?
Lemme tell you a straight No.


I feel like a trash,
that was thrown to the ground.
And no one bothered to pick it up.
And there I layed,
As a trash,
Being kicked,stepped,or maybe jumped on.

Days Slowly Shifts,
But Those Cap Locks Are Still On.

It's not like I didnt give myself a chance,
that precious chance to change things and start afresh,
I did,but you just wouldnt notice it.

If all past blames is what you revenged for,
Then lemme put that girl in your life.

Dont Worry About Me,I'll Be Fine.

"I'd photocopy all the things taht we could do,
If you took the time to notice me.
But right now you cant,
And I don't blame you taht no one ever does'
291108;Never a second wasted'


Yours Truly,
Syaeera'