The Unexpected

(All The Best , AznieAKim ) <3>

Featuring . Mr.Perfectionist .

Hey Fellas ,

Yesterday 16th November 09,

In th morning, went ta school with (insert name) .

Sent Ma Bali Worsheets (:

And met th rest there. Bali's Homies. Ahahahaas .

We're Like A Family Already .

See, The Bali Trip Really Changed Everythang .

It's funny how it seems ta be .

Andandand, I Fell In Love .

With? ( Insert Name) .

Kay, I'm Talking Crap Already.

I'm gonna scrap everythang, And Take it ta th next level .

Back Ta Square One ! (:

We All Planned Ta Watch 2012 Before Some Spice Leave Fo Th KL trip.

So, 11 Peeps Turn Up.

Me,Aznie,Ady,Hakim,Amirul,Adlie,Afiq,Ismail,Raja,Arshad,Erwin .

Went Ta Cathay , Dhouby Ghout.( I hope ma spelling is correct )

It was kinda boring fo me as I'm watching th same film again.

Afiq keep asking me what's gonna happen next.

Ma apology, Couple. Me & Afiq Took Yo Seat . HAHAHAHA :P

After th movie, everyone headed ta the Ladies & Gents .

Cos We All Couldnt stand it any longer.

Ya know what I mean.

The Ladies were crowded, so I wait up in th queue fo th Handicapped'. (Typical Singaporean Fo Th Day, Ahaahs ) (:

I Wanted Ta Boo Th Guys , So I Waited Outside Th Toilet Entrance .

I Heard them talking while they were inside.

So I straightaway boo them when I heard footsteps.

How unlucky can I be, It Was A Stranger.

I blushed & turned Red. I said sorry & th stranger smiled at me.

OMG ! SO embarassing! XP

I swear th guy I boo-ed look so much like Ismael.

The rest laughed at me.

Ahaahs, What A Day.

Blablablablablabla, Went Ta Simpang Bedok Ta Eat.

And Then Went Ta Es Paris.

Overnight There.

P/s : I'm Sorry That I Fell Asleep In Th Middle Of Our Conversation & I'm Sorry That I Didnt Text You Before You Leave Singapore.

Bali ; Fo Th Real Change .

Hey Fellas,
I'm Back From Bali (:
And I watched 2012 Already , hehs .
Totally Sorraye Fo Not Blogging.
I Know It's Been A Long Time.
I Will Update Soon.
I Dont Wish Ta Blog Everythang Right Now Cos All I Could Ever Think About Is Ma Crush .
Too Lazy Ta Type Everythang Here .
But Aint Restless Ta Type Somethang.
AHAAHS ! XD
I Think He Makes Me Happy,
I Know Where I'll Be.
Be by your side cos, You are th one .
Hahahahahahah, I know I'm talking crap here.
I Cant Stop Smiling ,hoho.
Sugardreams!
tctoodledo, (:

P/s: Shawty's Like A Melody In My Head ,
Got Me Singing Like,
Lalala, Everyday.
Hottie, You Really Changed My Life '

~~~~~~~~~~ Ma Crush Is A Total Hottie ! ```````

YourstilImadeyoumine,
Syaeera '

Th Truth Fo Yo.

Dear Numba One Beyonce's Fan ,
I'm Sorry Fo Dissapointing Yo.
I Gotta Question Ta Ask, Why You So Obsessed With Me ?
Wanting Kids Ta Be Having Ma Eyes? That's Way Too Far.
I'm Still Holding On Ta Th Promises That I Made.
And Listen Here .
NO ONE CAN CHANGE ME.
I Repeat, No One. Who Are You Ta Change Ma Decisions ?
Stop Calling Me , Stop Sending Me Long Textes .
I'm Sick Of It , Seriously .
It's Hopeless .
Nothang You Do , Will Change Ma Mind.
Here's To You .



Ma Heart's Beating Fast.
And It's Whispering Somethang Bad To Me.
I Guess I Cant Take This Pressure Any Longer .
I Am Not Suitable For You.
Trust Me, I Aint.
I'm Independent .
I'm Th Kind Of Girl Who Knows How Ta Have Fun,
To Let Ma Future Boyfriend Have His Own Guy's Time.
I'm Not Needy.
Neither Am I Insecure.
Cos When I Trust Someone,
I Put In Complete Trust In Him / Her.
Which Makes Me Feel Secure .
I Think If Ma Position Right Now Is Being Your Gf ,
In Our Situation,
I Think I Would Have Been A Bad Gf.
Cos You Need Someone That Can Favour You All Th Time,
Treat You Like A Baby, And Ta Adore You At All Times.
But Me?
I Am Far Different From All Of Th Above.
I Like Ta Spend Time With Ma Sugars & Spice + Ma Family .
I Put Them On Top Of Th Rest.
Which Includes ,
Putting Them As Ma Top Priority.
And Second Is You.
It's Natural,
Cos They've Been There Fo Me Throughout Th Years,
Even Before I Met You '.
But I Know, In Some Ways, You Dont Really Like It.
Which Makes Me Think Real Deep, How Ta Play Fair.
But Hey,
I Dont Live Ta Please Anyone Right?
And I Would Very Much Appreciate If A Guy Respects Ma Decision.
I Dont Like Ta Be Rushed. And Imma Girl Of Ma Words.
I Do What I Speak. And I Hate Ta Pretend.
I'm Honest & I Speak Th Outmost Truth.
Even When Words Kills.
Lately, Ive Been Down.
Even When I Am Supposed Ta Be Having Fun.
You Drop Ma Happiness Till All I Could Ever Do Is Ta Think,Think & Think.
Dang, I Wanna Live Ma Life To Th Fullest Yo.



xoxo,
Syaeera'

Sugarhunnybunchcrunch ;

Will Update Soon ; Sugar '

Yearning.

Yesterday,
I was doing my art final piece in my room,
When Emma texted me.
From like 1 pm till 1am.
It's sucha long time ta complete one final piece.
Had ta stick da lace,da felt & tha jewels according ta my fashion design.
My theme is 'Masquerade madness'.
& I had ta do a couture design.
But I ended doing a pinkwhitejewels&lace.
Haha,It looks like an Barbie's Dollfit.
Pfmmttt.
Eve's gonna get shocked by my final piece.
Cos it's way different from my concept.
& I gotta do the otha thangs for art too,as
I've prepared my prep work,
but havent complete da whole thang.

~Hiyaak Dush! (:
Still a long way ta go.

Okayoaky,
Back ta Emma.
She asked me for a little text help.
I had no idea what ta type and so,
Suddenly,
I just felt like I have ta express what exactly was on my mind.
I send her this:

If one touch of me,
Could turn everything that I touched to ice,
I would touch the universe except for Me & You.
This Icy cold fingers,
Will take your hand,
Hold it tight,
Feel the blood rushing through your veins.
Skating on the streets,sidewalks,roads,
With only you by my side.
And if that wish were ever ta grant,
I would hereby promise,
That You're the last person I wanna be with,
Before both of us turns cold.

Hope you like it,sista.
*Giggles*
Yours truly,
Syaeera'

Emotions.

You: Giving out love is like a treasure in people's heart. But I know where's the
spot to mark you.& its deep inside your heart.

Trusting each other will take time,I know.
But baby, if there's a will, there's a way.
Syaeera,Are You Ready To Be My Boo?(: and just wanna say that,
From the bottom of my heart, I really love you.

Syaeera Whispers: The moment I read your textes,I know you're true.
But this little heart of mine is whispering something bad to me.



Me: The pain that I've went through,
Can never lit my smile ever again.
Not a smile,a laugh,
The happiness taht I ever went through was untouchable.
And if love is temporary,
Why bother step into it?
For as we know that nothang ever last.
Why put yourself at risk?
When ya know da consequences.
I'll never love again ; Till I find the meaning to it.

Yours truly,
Syaeera'

Him: I want to take that risk,
If you can give the chance to show you how much I love you.
Then if you doesnt want,I'm still
Gonna try my best to win over your heart.

Happy mother's day,honey(:

Mama played a kitty-fight with me,just now.(:
Cos I caught her peeping at my cellphone,
And she act as thought she wanna charge my cellphone.
'You're visible already,mama'.
Haha.
She was embarassed cos I've seen through her white lie.
hehs,
I laughed to da core,
and she catches me as i run around da house.
But in the end,
she got me.
Dang,you got me,honey.

Thank you for bringing me up.
Watching me grow,
My first scribble,
My first time mumbling "mama"
My first cry,
Changing my diapers and milk bottle way back then.
And every single thing you did for me.
The pain you've gone through,just to have me safe.
Telling me bedtime stories everynight to make me sleep,way back then.
Singing me ta sleep.
Stayed with me,when I used to be warded almost everytime in the hospital.(for whatever reasons).
Forgive me for all those pain I've caused you.
I love you,mama.
Yes I Do.



Much love,
Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

A better today.

In Life,Everyday Is Just A Test From God’

That's what papa often reminds me,
whenever I wanna find out the purpose of living in this world.

till I find the meaning,
Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

I'll take it slow

Yesterday,
9th May 09.

Supposed ta go ta da gym with Mr.Nice & Manis.
Planned ruined due to my beautysleep.aiyaiyayai(:
Watched a malay film.
Texted Mr.Nice & Manis bout da plan.
Too many changes , I'd rather study .hiyaaak-dush!
Bbq ,karaoke,Bicycle ride,Marina.
I Cant Decide.
Manis doesnt wanna go ta da bbq,for some reasons.
I dont want ta,if there's no Manis(:
So I texted Mr.Nice & told him that I dont wanna go.
And he dont wanna go,if there's no me.haha.
Crazy dude.
I got so messed up with the un-fixed plan,
so I didnt reply Mr.Nice's textes.
I'd rather spend time doing ma thangs.
Iya baybee texted me,
Asking if I'm going, to Marina with Olin & stuffs.
I replied,told her yea.
Manis sent me a sudden text,saying: "Syaeera,I'm on my ma ta ya place".
Oh my,I'm not ready yet.
I asked if she wanna tag along with me to karaoke.
And she wants ta(:
Got ready and stuff, phooff! go on with ma plan.
Upon reaching,saw Rahmat at bedok inter & I smiled.

Took 2 with Manis ; talktalktalk & reached.
Met Iya baybee,Emma,Olin,Ina Fenty,Shakira & Nass.
Went ta seperate karaoke rooms,
Me & Manis together.(:
Sang:
Hero-Mariah Carey(Manis.ft Syaeera)
Beatiful Liar-Beyonce & Shakira(Manis & Syaeera)
When You're gone-Avril Lavinge(Manis & Syaeera)
Fergalicious-Fergie(Manis.ft Syaeera)
Ma Goodies-Ciara(Manis)
We Belong together-Mariah Carey(Manis)
Aku bukan untukmu-Rossa(Syaeera.ft Manis)
Sakura-Rossa(Syaeera)
Cinta-Rossa(Syaeera)
Bunga-Bunga Cinta-Misha Omar(Syaeera)
Pulangkan-Misha Omar(Syaeera)
And alot more(:

Had fun though even unwanted guys looking through da class door.
Iya baybee & girls finished da session first,so they waited for us.
Joked,Laughed,Ticles, & went ta da bus stop.
Me & Manis took 2 ta Bedok.
Iya Baybee & girls took 21 ta Bedok Reservoir.
Saw fyna & friends in da bus.
Went ta meet Mr.Nice at Bedok.
Aha.
Horaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy for Manis.
(Someone gotta secret crush!)*winkwink* (Ahems)
I'm happy for you,babe.
Mr.Nice, P/s:Had a beautiful bicycle ride with you(:
Hahaha,it's been awhile since someone treat me this way.
You're way too nice,sweetie.
Okayokay, I dont wanna brag about it.
Just something is missing.
You're nice,you're sweet,but I'm still a bit naive.
I just dont know why I'm not that into you.
But at times, I do.
Maybe I was insecure.
See,I cant explain this feelings I'm having.
Or maybe this feelings I'm craving.
Haha, Anyway,
Overall,That ride with you is beautiful.

You fetched me home ,wherever I am.
You talk to me now & into the nights,till it's alright again.
You make me feel special,
Putting me on top of the rest.
It's like I'm Precious to you.
You're not ashamed of me,eventhough I got an ugly side.
You show me off to da world instead.
I Appreciate, Yes I do.
& I Thank you for that.

Papa fetched me at skyhigh,
Off ta Pasir Ris ta view my going-ta-be house
with Baby Danial,Grandma,Auntie Lynn Uncle.
Baby Danial is going ta turn Three,soon(:
He's really cute.
After House viewing,went ta Fisherman's Village.
Went ta Mac after that.
Bought Lovely grandma Sundae(:
I love you alot,nenek.hehs.

Went home.
Toodles,
Fellas.(:

Yours till your heart breaks,
Syaeera'

"THE HOTTEST LOVE HAS THE COLDEST END"

This was typed by me when I had nothang better ta do at Diana's place.
Only one big word ta describe what exactly I was feeling that particular Friday.
REMENINSCE.


Dear Mr.No Longer Exist,
I know it's over between us.
I know I've Moved On.
& I sense,you do too.
But as goodbyes are sweet drifts,
I think I have ta confess this.
The fact that I,:
Still remember the way you unlock my heart,
Still wishing that I'll get ta know you that I first met,
Still wishing that the promise you made will come true,
Hoping that every single history wil fade,
But it never did.
Never did I hate you,(Eventhough I often describe it).
Just words,ta keep reminding myself ta forget you.
But it was too strong to change my perspective of you.
But the fact that I cant,
Made me find solutions to this illusions.
But solutions after the other,
Still cant push you away.
Cos for the truth is, "You're often the first & the last in my mind".
Just like my favourite song that keeps playing on da speaker.
Repeating da tracks,over & over again.
The song that even puts me ta sleep,every single lonely nights of mine.
I just want you to know that,
I miss every single moment with you.
I know others keep saying & inferring the sentence:" Grow up kid,Move On".
But what hurts the most was being so close.
I Miss Every Single Thang About You.
And right now, I LOST YOU'

"Though No One Can Go Back And Make A Brand New Start,
Anyone Can Start From Now And Make A Brand New Ending ".

Labels:Guys,Dudes,Boys,Lads or whatever they label it.

Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

Just So Random

Yoyoyoyooyo,Fellas.
Hiyaaak-dush! (:
haha,kay I'm krazaye.


I'm damn bored at home.
Been studying lately.(choo choo train).
Haha,you know what I mean.
I promise ta do better in studies.
Life's great.I'm emotionally stable.(huahua)
I'm shifting house soon ; but I dont know when.
I'm sooo excited. But at da same time,worried.
I hope this is da best for me.
Okayokay,gym,swimming pool,I guess I'll be seeing you everyday.(haha)
Kay,I dont know what exactly I'm feeling right now.
Just ignore my craps.(:
Back ta square one!

Okay so lately,I've been spending time with dudes & dudettes.
Eve,Kerraline,Diana,Ady,Daryl,Huzairi.(+ 2 other peeps,but I wont mention.)
Since I'm lazy ta blog about what I've been doing lately,
So just read da summary.

Here's da summary of what I've been doing:
Went ta karaoke with Diana & Eve.
Studied at Pasir Ris with Ady,Daryl,Joshua,Haikal & I forgot the otha one.
Went ta Haikal's chalet with Kerraline.
Went ta da movies with Mr.Nice,Roy,Nafsiah & Azri.
Went ta RC ta meet Iya,Ina,olin and tha rest.
Eat,Sleep,Dance,Sing,Laugh,Study. (:


phoof!
I'm going ta study again.
Takecare fellas.

Toodles!


Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

Space '

This is gonna be a post in Malay.
I would like ta apologise ta those who dont undastand.
I jotted this in my Diary lastnight.
I wrote this,after a friend of mine texted me.

So Here's to you:

Kata-kata ini diukir di dalam diari ku.
Kemudian ku imbas kembali peristiwa yang sangat menyakiti,
Menyakiti hatiku.

Ku ukirkan kata-kata ini di galerimu, wahai teman dan juga sahabatku.


Wahai Teman,
Kamu pernah memberitahuku bahawa cinta itu adalah aku.
Ternyata,kamu salah.
Aku bukan Cinta.
Cinta yang dikau impikan selama ini.
Wajah yang dikau rindui,
Setiap detik ku tiada.
Detik ini,
Aku sendiri tidak tahu apa itu cinta.
Apakan lagi, ertinya.
Wujudkah Cinta itu?
Kau pernah berkata bahawa senyumanku manis,
Tetapi pernakah terlintas di fikiranmu,
Saat dikau ucapkan kata-kata manismu,
Aku langsung tidak percaya,
Dan ku anggapnya sebagai kata-kata manismu sahaja?
Wahai teman, maafkan aku.
Aku tidak dapat menerima Cintamu.
Kerna dikau lafazkan ayat-ayat cinta kepadaku,
Hanya selepas mengenaliku selama sehari

Itu bukanlah Cinta.
Itu hanyalah permainan hatimu.
Aku akui ,memang sukar untuk ku percaya.
Percayakan bahawa tidak semua jejaka itu sama.
'Jejaka' yang pernah juga melukai hatiku.
Aku tidak mahu bercinta lagi.
Kerana cintalah aku jadi begini.
Hari-hari ku muram,kasihku kurang.
Adilkah ini?
Ternyata tidak.
Aku belum bersedia lagi.
Kembalikanlah Cinta hidupku yang hilang itu.

"Aku tidak akan menanti,
kerana menantilah,
Cintaku mati"


Dengan penuh Cinta ;
Yang Benar,
Syaeera'



English Translation Of da Poem ;

Dear friend,
You once told me tahat love was me.
But're you're wrong.
I'm not love.
The love that you had wished for or dream of all this while.
The glance of me that you miss,
Every single second I'm not around.
I dont even know what's love.
And furthermore,
The meaning ta it.
Does love really exist?
You once told me that my smile was the sweetest,
But did it ever come across your mind taht to me,
It was just another sweet verse of yours?
Honestly, I didnt trust you at all.
Dear friend,
I'm sorry,
I cannot accept your love.
Cos you confessed after spending just a day with me.
That's not love,sweetie.
Your heart's just playing games with you.
& Yes I admit, I completely lost trust in guys.
'Guys',the label that did break this little soul of mine.
I dont wanna fall in love again.
Cos 'love' put me in this state that I'm going through.
My life's down,
My love's lost.
Is this fair to me?
Let me tell you a straight No.
Perhaps time wasnt ready for eveythang.
Return me the lost love of my life.

"I will not wait,cos if I were ta wait,
My love fades".

With much love,
Yours truly,
Syaeera'

Breathe Slow.

I'll be your sunshine ,
To brighten your life even at the darkest corner,
The brightest star in the starry night.
The glow to every little thing you do.
The one that stays even for the worse.(The one who'll be there even if you turn into an ugly toad. (: )


P/s:Count from 1 to 10 with your eyes close.
"you'll see me" .

xoxo.

yours truly,
Syaeera'

Another dream on you' .

Dear Mr.Weirdo,

A failure at all circumstances,
A mess to all resolutions,
A loser in love puzzles .

But YOU ,
You turn all my fantasies ta Life.
You guide me through all those impossibilities,
Making all things possible,
Turning dreams to reality.
Dont worry,I wont make you my everything.
As I learn that nothing stays forever.
And if you were ta change one day,
So be it.(:
I'm physically & mentally prepared.

I cherish every second I spend '



Labelled: My heart beats a second earlier everytime I notice You ; I think I'm in love .


Another dream on you.
And hell is nothing compared to this heat that I am feeling.
-Syaeera Is Not In Love,Just Dreaming of mr.Charming.

I've Moved %

I'm Over it.
You're a mistake
In a time,
Which leaves a great impact in my life .

You're a huge mistake,
A choice I made
Eventhough I know the
Consequences.


This is gonna be the last post about you,I supposed.

THE END.


yours truly,
Syaeera'

Stay away ; public. Dang,heartless freaks!

I didnt comment anything about you,
I didnt call you fat either.
Just because of my one pathetic mistake,doesnt mean that you can go on and brag rubbish about me.
Sadly,you make me feel bad about you.
And oh.Fcuk Off with da kiddo and bitch thang.
Dont freaking look down on me just because I'm younger than you.
And hell,in school,you're just a year older than me.
Age does not matter.
Pity you,who kept infering that I'm a kiddo,but you're stuck around those who are younger than you.I freaking dont care about your age ; dont wanna know either.
And at least, I go through it alone.
I'M UNLIKE YOU, who interfere in people's chaos.
You just showed me how childish you are by speaking without thinking.
What A Shame ; .

Heartless .

Labelled : Lovelost,Stay Away.

Dear Blossom,
I dont know ta who I can go to already.It's really hard ta accept da fact that you were also behind all this.I tried so hard ta hate you,and for the reasons is because of all you've done. But sadly,I Cant. Cos I know you were not like that.
You're a different person now.Eventhough all the hurt & pain you've caused,I did not,
never did I let it out ta you harshly.You called me a bitch,but Hey Jerk,you are the jerk in my heart,but never did I call you that.Because I aint a kid,I wont label you stuffs & shits.As you called me a bitch,Lemme tell ya this:

I'm the bitch you fell in love with,
I'm the kid who go through it alone,
Fancy you,being the guy going through me by someone else.
I'm the kid that dont revenge about my past.
But You?

You're the coward that involve others between us.
You're the kid that runaway from problems.
You're the kid that fall in love with me.
You're the kid that get mad of unreasonable problems.
you might call me a bitch,slut,kid, and whatever thangs,
but I only have two words for you.
You're a Heartless Coward.



And on top of this,I would like ta apologise ta ya fellas about the lies I told here.
And the lies are written in BOLD in da post; 'Another dream wasted on you'.
I'm sorry.

You're the reason I feel alive again '

(1st Shot : Rainbow shot while on my way ta da bus-stop(: )
(2nd Shot : Syaeera Featuring Mirul )
(3rd Shot : Olin.Rollin&Syaeera Featuring.Eddy)




P/s: Dear Fellas,
Post Will be updating soon' .

Vulnerable .

Yesterday , 20th Marchie 09,
Woke up early in da morning for malay dance practise.
Ilovemymalaydancers! (: .
Hahs,yea random. Tried so hard ta embrace ta da song.Left School at around 3.30 ; If I aint wrong. Spent time with Eve & Shaz ,dancing all away.
Laughed with love ,(: .
Went ta skyhigh , but it was too hot there,
so went ta chat at a place next ta Eve's apartment.
And then, some paricular seeking attention mats, purposely walk past our table and sat right next ta us.
Ewww,itchyybutyy guys.
I cant stand such people, so I ask Eve ta move ta my house instead.
Went ta ma house, sharing secrets,flipped magys,joke around, laughed again.(:
Spending time with her was never a second regretted.(:
My friend,my sister, my everythang.
"I Love You,Eve" .
Okay,After that accompanied her ta meet her boyfriend and blablabla,
and then I went off.
And for if I went ta da bus stop with no intentions, I called Anal.
Asked him where he is, and then met him & his sister.
Sent her sister off ta my estate, and then went ta takraw court .
Saw one of my senior malay dancer there, tehee.(:
Stayed till 8+, then headed ta pasir ris ta meet Emma & family.
Had ex-boyfriend accompanying me, while waiting for da time ta fly.
Joke,laughed,smiled,slapped him for some joking reasons, haa(:
He went off as he stayed around there to, and then I headed ta E-hub ta meet my Aunts & Uncles.
Ate at Mac,zoom ta da car.(:
Emma Overnight at ma crib, and da all time favourite ; wacth horror films.(:
Slept at around 3 am.
Wished Iyastar was here with us too.):
Ayaan called, for I dont know why.
Mirul & Iya texted.
Too tired, So I turned in at three.


21st Marchie Morning Ohh (:
Iya Texted, Asked me out.
Blogged.
Meeting Da rest Later with Emma.
Going Karaoke Again,I guess.
I wish someone would ask me out to da movies' .
Havent watched for kinda long period of time.
Kay,I gotta go,
Emma wanna use da comp.
Toodles, fellas.


XOXO.
Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

Another dream wasted on you '.

Dear Fellas,
Eighteenth Marchie zerozeronine,(:
Went ta Sentosa with manis babe. Was supposed ta shot videos for our project work.
But turns out,we took shots of us,haha(:.
Took bus thirty,as I dont wanna get confused by the changing of da mass rapids.
Hahs,after da long journey in da bus day dreaming, and finally, we reached.(:
Headed ta Siloso first,then to Pahlawan Beach.
Was surprised and shocked when I saw people there. I mean, nevermind,forget about it.
Dang,Going to Sentosa was definitely a wrong choice made.Should have gone ta karaoke or somethang.
Or probably,East Coast. Dang,I shoud have listen to that tiny voice of my heart.
But dang,it's okay. I had fun with manissah babe.
And Couples there,'Suh-weet'(: .
And let me reminsce da seven-eleven scenes.
That mr.cashier, made me felt so shy ta even buy things there already.
Here's da story : I grabbed some buns and my all time favourite ; Green Tea.
And upon paying,he looked into my eye,and I cant stand people doing that to me.
and because I'm short,I cant reach ta da green tea,so he kid with me.
He smiled and hold my Green Tea and did not let me reach mine.
He asks for my name and all.
So I just smiled and look away.
I had ta tiptoed ta reach my drink.
Damn it,laa.
Thought he was Indonesian .
Manis kept laughing and smiling. Whispering that he likes me.
I was like,"manissah,I came here ta buy a drink,not to flirt".
She was like,"Okayokay,Sorry luh".
We ended up going there thrice.
Aww man,damn embarrasing luh.
Anal & Mir asked for plastics and he wouldnt let them.
So they asked me for a little help, and so I went ta da cashier for plastics.
Before handling it ta me, He ask for my name,my age and where I am from in perfecto Bahasa Melayu.
Oh god, so all this while,all those whispers of me & manis, he understands laa.
After that incident,I never want ta go back there again.
After spending all da time, we headed back home.
But halfway through the sandy soft pestels, Miss Sharifah ,our year two literature teacher, called us in.
We went there, tooked pictures with her, and spent some time there.
I saw Ex-bf there.
And I pretended like I didnt care. Seems like he was having fun, so I dont wish ta interupt his fun.
I wouldnt dare ta look him in the eye though.
Waited for Nal & Mir, whom took their own sweethoneybee times ta get back,
I snap some shots there and took some little steps in da water.(:
After all thangs are settled, we headed off ,took the beautiful small thang,and reached vivo.
Was supposed ta spend time there, but Manis had ta go, so we took thirty back ta Bedok again.
Funny me, Anal was making jokes just ta cheer me up,
but instead of laughing,I cried.
Cos perhaps it's just a normal day to all the human beings in da whole wide world,
but to me, it's a special day.
Ya Fellas wont understand why.
Told myself, if that night,nothang happens, then forget it,girl.
Ternyata, tiada apaapa berlaku ; lupakan sahajalah okay ;usah mencintai dirinya lagy.
While da journey in da bus ta bedok,they dedicate & sang me a song entittled 'Oh Syairah'.
A malay love story song,
but names changed.
Thanks alot,you guys.(:
That made me feel a whole lot better. Now I realised, I dont need an extraordinary love.
I've got my family, my friends ; they're my rain, my bow,my shine'(:
Sent manis babe home, and spent time under apartment 36, if I aint wrong.
Laughed,Joke,Smiled,Lived my life '.
Papa texted me, and then I went home with Anal.
Thanks Anal for sending me home (: .


'Upon looking at those nice scenery,those skyhigh above, a sunset without you again'
Another dream wasted on you ; what a dissapointment.
Labelled :Never were- ♥Lost, stay away .


Yours truly,
Syaeera '

Stay Away.

Today Seventeenth Marchie 09,
Got up early in da morning at around 10, due to malay dance practise in school.
Left house at around 11:20 a.m.
Reached school at 11:45 a.m.
Somehow,Da school wasnt silent today.
Walk through the gym walkway and I saw her.
Pretended like I didnt saw her, and just walk away.(cos I aint sure if I had ta say 'Hello,Hi" or something).
Well,that doesnt mean that I'm arrogant.
Sat in 4/6 class for awhile,
chatted with da classmates.
P/s: They Are Great Human Beings (: .
Didnt intend ta disturb Deal & Yaan, So I went ta da back seat,
and chatted with caveyy-man throughout.
Saw "Superhuman's" table, being a busybodaye, I look through his file'.
And there, I saw the letter that I once gave him.
I remembered when I once told him that if he do miss me, do read that letter.
So much for thinking that he brought home that letter or somethang.
Ternyata,tidak.
See,guys dont a-p-p-r-e-c-i-a-t-e .
Well,it's okay. I can do it way better.
Imma show you how it feels like , to be unnappreciated '
I am lovesick. I mean, yes I know,forgetting you isnt easy.
Watching you walk away,breaks.
But dang,you got me.
And if I could start those chapters of love with you, I'm sure I would be able to end it,too.
Your empty promises,that shows a coward's actions.
I believe,time will heal.

Kay,Let's Put It To A Stop.
I dont wanna brag about this anymore.
Back ta square one! (:.
After all those story-sharing session, left da class, and went ta eat with 'The Great Human Beings (: '.
As usual, I ordered Nasi Ayam Penyet,with Papaya Milk Shake.
Ahh,so fine".(:
After eating and stuffs, headed home .
Nobody's home, ): .
Called momma, asked her out.
Changed , headed ta Eve's housing estate.
Was supposed ta meet her,but she was nowhere ta be found.
Met Yaan at dome,
and headed ta 78'.
Saw ex-bf ,and the takraw people.
And saw bestfriend w/ Sofea under blk 78.
Got nothang better ta do,so sat with them for awhile.
Was desperately searching and trying ta find a way ta reach Eve.):
Rang her homie,but she aint home'.
In the end,decided ta just leave, without her.
Took 506, and headed ta iya's crib.
Met momma there, headed ta Scotts road, and shoppe(:.
Yay man!.
Somehow, when momma talked ta me about 'superhuman',
I dont know why I get a little sensitive, and I cried ); .
Dang, I told momma that I'm trying ma best till the very end.
And for if I give up,I'm sorry , you arent for me'.
I just dont know why rainy days seem so long.
But hell,
I'll be able ta go through this.\
Okayokay,I wanna stop here.
I'm too restless ta continue this post.
Perhaps next time alright.
Toodles~rainbowdreams,fellas.

xoxo!

yours truly,
Syaeera'

Wondering If you were ever coming around'

Today, Sixteenth of march.
Woke up early at around 7 a.m. ; went ta humanities classes.
Reached school at around 8:15 a.m.,
And da school was kinda empty. Saw Wafa,sat with her for about a few mins,and then headed ta class.
Class is okay today.(:
Afta class,dont know where ta go, so accompanied Anal & Diana to Mir's House.
Karaoked,watched paranormal,and all those girls' talk with Diana(: .
Went off like around 5 p.m.,
Walked throughout the hills and slopes,
In the end,reached home.(:
I kept thinking of you,lately. But I'm keeping queit,cos it's hopeless for me'.
What if the lost of da bracelet was just a false action made by me?
(Just ta see,wether I mean more to you,or da bracelet).
Yea I Know,I'm Still Wearing Da Bracelet.
Da gift from you,on our 2nd anniversary.
I'm sorry,I lied that it was lost.
And I know,Yesterday's text from me was random.
Cos when I looked Above The Skyhigh,
I Saw The Moon,The Stars,But I you wasnt there with me.
And I saw all the flashback of us, when I close this eyes of mine'.
Remember those star gazing moments with you under the moon?
I try so hard to get you out of my mind.
And I'm still holding on to your words.
And if all those promises you made,
was just a reason for you to not make me hate you,
then I guess I have ta accept the fact that you're gone forever.
Sometimes I wonder, "Dont You Ever Reminisce About Our Past,Even For A Second?"
Nomatter how hard I try,
Trust me, Forgetting you wasnt easy.
You're on my mind constant, thinking about you all the time'



Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

I Close My Eyes,And I Saw The Flashback Of Us'

(Candid Of Me And Mirul By Iya (: )

(Ena Fenty Feat,Syaeera)

(Olin Rollin ; Ena ; Iya : Sya )


(P/s:I Love You)




Today, March Fourteenth ; outing with IyaEmmaOlinNasMirulEddyEnna (: .
Papa drop me at bugis , met them , ate at Kfc.
Iya & me were laughing throughout.(our inside out joke right iya? aha,(: )
While walking ta Bugis village, some particular guys stopped Eddy & Mirul.
Emma panicked,Iya blured,Nas dreaming,Olin wondering & me,thinking.
Somehow those guys looked like gangstas.
But they're actually some peeps from da athorities.
Mirul were fined again.(P/s: I'm not gonna let that happen to you again.)
Somehow,all of us split ta da different directions.
Emma & me took bus 197 ta katong, and met the rest there.
We decided ta go for a karaoke session.
During da session, I was really shy at first,
and for the first few minutes and the first song I sang for today is Atas Nama Cinta-Rossa ,followed by Ayat-Ayat Cinta-Rossa,Ena sang Jablay by Titi kamal,Duet Bila rindu,My heart & S.O.S with her.(:
It was really fun.
Mirul sang "Aku Masih Sayang" -ST12 ;and I didnt know that Mirul gotta great voice.(:
After karaoke,all of us accompanied Ayaan & Amir For some gaming thang'.
Back at Bedok Reseivoir at around 9++,
Ate at mac with Iya,Mirul,Ayaan & Amir, Then headed to Iya's Crib.
Spend time there tiill papa fetch me.
And yea, he text'(:
I know you & Ayaan told somethangs ta Iya,
But right now,
I dont really trust guys anymore.
I'm sorraye.
Yes,maybe that imaginary princess,like in those fairytales,but I dont deserve it.
And Yes,I Do Dream Of Those Fairytale Happy-Endings Too,
But trust me,those happy-endings is far away from existence.
And I dont wish ta go through those puppylovethang again.
Trust me,
It Doesnt Exist.
I Lost da key, And I aint sure where I left it'.
But Overall,
Today sure was a fun and greato!(:
(P/s: I Love You,Sister)

Its 2:53 a.m. right now,
Gonna Call That Particular Someone,
And I'm Gonna Turn In Real Soon.
Good Dawn,
Everyone.
xoxo!


Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

♥ Much Misses ;

♥Fasha Zahara

♥Efron.
EFRON.EFRON.EFRON.P/S: You're in my mind constant,thinking bout you all the time'.
yours truly,
Syaeera

Scream Ma Name '

It's 15 days already,
anotha 15 more days ta go ta a month mending;
but nothang is yet mended.
It's okay.
Perhaps I shouldnt think about it anymore.
Live your life,syaeera' .
As goodbyes are sweet drifts,
Your empty promises,
Dang,I'm speechless.
I can't believe all the lies that you sold ,
& I was a fool to buy it all ' .

Wish you happiness throughout'.

With a little bit of love,
Syaeera'

A Paper Cut Symphony '

Today,
Friday da 13th,
I Finally get ta see KerralineBaby in school today.(:
Two exceptional days without her,didnt seemed so fine.
She's like, apart of me, my friend too'.
Early mass exercise,I passed my 2.4 km running thang,
so those who are cleared was given the opportunity to play sports.
I chosed volleyball,and played with my mates.
It sure was fun.
After ME, went ta recess.
Took light thangs during breaktime ;pineapple , HL (as usual),and milo.
Changed,And went ta maths class. And again,maths class is totally boring.
All those bangs and bumming in da class.
Dang,I just couldnt be bothered.
Pretended like I paid attention ta da lesson,when I was actually discussing some thangs with KerralineBaby.
It rained today, Yay!,haha(: .
Didnt waste too much time on toilets and stuffs,
went ta find a calm place,sat down for a few hours ta finish up Physical Education Project with Eve & my un-identical twin,-Syafiqah .
And those are da moments where happiness ,joy & laughter begins'(:
Throughout the ticking clock,Eve & Nutcracker laughed about me.
Cos da reason is,every jokes,every inference they made,
Still,I'm very slow at getting it and I didnt laugh. (How pathetic).
Halfway doing da project thang,saw Kamaro'(:
Hahs,completed the project at an estimated time :5.10 p.m. ,
tooked my bike under Sam's block,
And cycled home.
P/S: Somehow,I Feel Like I'm Being What I Used Ta Be,And I Like It That Way' (:


Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

Tarian Melayu'

(Shot Early January 09')


SYF's In April,
Speech Day Performance's in Early April.
I dont know if I can do it.
I hope I can make it.
I Promise to be a better dancer,
I promised not to bring our school down,
Instead,Make us proud.
I'll put in more effort,don't worry alright.



Cos The Reason I'm Interested In This Dance Is Because,
I Appreciate The Culture , And I Admire The Gracefulness '(:


Your's Truly,
Syaeera'

Us Against The World '

When words failed,music failed,Poetry Speaks For Me .

Here's To You :

We're like strangers already,
When we clash into the same direction,
Dont you notice that we're tryin ta avoid each other?


It's useless already,there's no point.
Do you think I really want this?
Lemme tell you a straight No.


I feel like a trash,
that was thrown to the ground.
And no one bothered to pick it up.
And there I layed,
As a trash,
Being kicked,stepped,or maybe jumped on.

Days Slowly Shifts,
But Those Cap Locks Are Still On.

It's not like I didnt give myself a chance,
that precious chance to change things and start afresh,
I did,but you just wouldnt notice it.

If all past blames is what you revenged for,
Then lemme put that girl in your life.

Dont Worry About Me,I'll Be Fine.

"I'd photocopy all the things taht we could do,
If you took the time to notice me.
But right now you cant,
And I don't blame you taht no one ever does'
291108;Never a second wasted'


Yours Truly,
Syaeera'

A Public Affair' ; Destroyed,Moving On With Life .

Unwritten Tragedies ; Mishappened Chaos .

Firstly,I Would Like Ta Apologise Ta Fellow Dudes & Dudettes.
I'm Sorry For Not Updating Ma Blog For A Very Long Period Of Time.
Been Busaye Since 09'

I Seek Your Understanding,
xoxo!